Give it all.

I'd give it all for you.

I love your laugh

I love your voice.

I guess I love you.

<3

Wishing on Airplanes.

So I believe that this was a bad idea. 

After almost 2 years of never associating with him, I spoke to him again. It was very odd at how this happened as well. 

I was visiting Alyssa, and I was angry, since he was ignoring her. More then likely, because I was there. I believe you all know who I am talking about now.

,,,we've been messaging each other back and forth since the trip... and gained our ...somewhat screwed up friendship back. I didn't feel anything at the time, except wanting to get back at this boy for the way my heart was tossed and crumbled by his hands ... but maybe I was wrong. I guess he was my first love, even if I never met him. But then again, maybe I'm just wishing on airplanes. I guess I've always wanted this boy back. But I will not admit it to him or just anyone. I'm not willing to give my heart to anyone right now after all of the things I've been through. I'm not ready to say the words "I love you" yet, because they can make or break anything. I don't want to go through that pain. 

Maybe he is my only exception.

Maybe I'm still just wishing.

but whatever happens, I'll either hate romance more and more, or I'll gain a soft spot for it once more, like I used too.

i do hope we can keep a friendship, because we always had a wonderful one. Maybe we just weren't meant to be.... lovers? hahahah, what an odd word. But i do believe we were meant to be friends, somehow... :/ The way we got together was... almost a freak accident. But it happened. I would like to change things, but then again, maybe not. We're not supposed to regret anything. So i wont regret it. 

 But, for now, i believe maybe I should lay low.

I'll be bulletproof this time too.

Love never lasts...

....everytime I hear the song "The Only Exception" by Paramore, tears well up in my eyes. It makes me think back to when I was young and how things used to be. Back when my dad was still alive, and back when he screwed up so many times.... Like Haley says...... he broke his own heart by cheating, and i watched as he tried to re-assemble the pieces that had gone askew through his rocky relationships.... It kills me.... this along with so many other things make me wonder if true love does exist in this world anymore. You find so many people getting married, having kids, dating.... and none of it amounts to anything in the end... they either cheat, or just want the sex....

What has become of the world? People used to fall in love for years and years, until DEATH did them part. But not anymore. No one wants love anymore, and after so many repeats of things to come, I don't really know if I'm able to believe either.

The only thing about the song, that's different to my point of view...

I haven't found my only exception....

And I wonder if I will or if I'm going to be one of these girls who just parties and fucks around. I don't want to go through the pain of loving someone now. Not after all the things I've seen.... the things I've felt.....

I just wonder....

Will my only exception come...? Or am I doomed to be alone for the rest of my life...?

Doing me up with the black color liner

Omg i LOVE that song. <3 I hate how Adam Lambert makes me want to go out and just party. :] Makes me want to be more wild instead of the tame little cat that I am. xD I'd kill to be brave enough to dress kinda skanky and be able to pull it off. You know? Satisfy myself and break a few hearts while doing it. Not caring what they thought the next morning. I'd be happy. ;D I feel that's wrong of me, but then again, i'm also just 20. I want to be able to party, or w/e shit i wanna do. Not be tied down for a while.

But anyways~ <3

I have been going to campus for the past two weeks. I'm enjoying it, but there is still that part of me that feels unsatisfied with where i am. As many of you know, my dream is to one day become an animator. I just feel that it's what I'm meant to do. Either that or be a model. ;D But we'll save that story for a later day.

My creative skills cannot express my emotions and talent that I hold within. I wish sometimes I just had a HUGE piece of paper that I could just draw on. After my Drawing II class, I have yearned to draw on a bigger sheet of paper, something bigger then me. I want to express my inner feelings and just go crazy. I want to make an animation about what I see when I listen to a song, such as Don't Jump by Tokio Hotel. 

I will do this.
I lost my train of thought. :D


W00t~